The first leap was beginning this blog. I launched this blog for all to see six months ago and because of it I have grown an immeasurable amount. I have learned to overcome the fear of rejection, and to not take things personally. I have learned that I LOVE to write, it's really become my passion. I have learned that it's OK to not be everyone's cup of tea. I have learned to just do things for me.
I also raced a horse this year. There's no other way to put that. I raced in a race behind a horse, alongside other horses, in front of a very large and loud crowd. I wore a tiny purple flower pin in honor of my grandma that race too. I knew I needed her with me for that one. This was the most exhilarating experience in my 38 years. I trained for that race for a few months and fell in love with horses. Every time I was behind the horse I felt an adrenaline rush like none other and then of course that rush in the actual race was beyond thrilling and untouchable. I wanted to race again and again once it was over. Funny thing though, when I even thought about committing to that race my palms would sweat and the anxiety inside of me would kick into high gear. I figured I wouldn't sleep for months just fearing that race. I conquered that fear though and I am so glad I did! I can't imagine missing out on that experience.
This year I became an American citizen. After having been a permanent resident for almost 13 years, I decided to go all in and become a voter. Years ago, I was totally fine with just being a resident. I could work here and I could live here and that was enough. Until this year, when I realized that my voice matters, I teach in the public school system and I am a parent and what I think and feel matters. Instead of renewing my permanent resident status I just went for the big title. This took a lot of studying and some intense interviews. I learned a lot about this country, many people believe, probably more than the average American. I was sworn in with 72 other desiring citizens from all over the world. We cried together, sang together and waved American flags proudly together, all with our loved ones present. This was one of the proudest moments of my life. If you haven't been to an Oath Ceremony for people becoming citizens of this country, I highly recommend that you do. You will never experience anything more patriotic in your life. Also, stay tuned for my "I voted" sticker pic in the 2020 presidential election.
In my last year, I also went all in for my job. I became a part of a looping pilot at my school. I moved on from Kindergarten and went to first grade with my same class. This has been so challenging and rewarding all at the same time. I have gotten to know the kiddos in my class far more than I would've ever been able to in just one year with them. As a teacher, you want to be impactful and I wholeheartedly believe that in order to have an impact you have to have a relationship. I am so grateful that this year I was given the opportunity to grow the relationships that I have with 26 kiddos and I get to learn right along side them for 3 more years!
This last year certainly hasn't been perfect, there has been ups and downs, heartache, stress, tears and worry. However, heading into this new year I can honestly say that I have never felt more proud of myself. I know that 2020 is going to bring great things too...some trips and adventures, some new work challenges for both Nick and I. Nick is turning the big 4-0, we're getting a pool and in conjunction with the 100th anniversary of the women's right to vote I will vote for the first time in a major election as a citizen of the United States. I will continue blogging and setting big goals for myself. I will also continue to carry my grandma's strength with me through all of it. Bring it on 38!
2/23/1947 - 12/31/2018